Friday December 5, 2008
For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone, Ps. 91:11-12.
This text certainly reflects the way I feel today. It may seem strange that, anticipating some uncomfortable surgery, I would feel excited at the results obtained yesterday—so much so that I had difficulty sleeping last night and spent some time around 3.00 a.m. at my computer! Even the infection that started this whole affair was a blessing in disguise, warning me of the dirty little secret my body was hiding from me. I guess I can’t blame my body, cancer, like sin, tries to remain incognito until it has a good hold.
I reflect sometimes on my emotional response to this threat. I surprise myself at the matter-of-fact way that I have responded. Shouldn’t I feel some anger, fear or at least be depressed? Or am I fooling myself, hiding this all away in some remote dungeon of my subconscious where it is waiting to surface and explode? Or is this part of the “cold fish” temperament that Ann suggests I have? Perhaps it’s not wise to delve too deeply; I am only too happy to be who I seem to be in this situation!
Our text today again helps with an answer. Circumstances are such that I have confidence; not only in God but in the people he has placed in the trauma I’ll soon undergo. The urologist, who will be performing my probable surgery, is a younger man with only six years in the profession. But a good friend of ours is an OR nurse in Lethbridge, not only with many years working with the top surgeons in Calgary, but also working with this surgeon regularly. When I asked her for an opinion on his surgical work —and she is a particularly candid sort—her reply was an unequivocal “100%.”
As some of you have said, God is sooo good.